So, just to make me laugh, you stuck a grape up your nose. I dared you to catch it in your mouth, and you were trying for twenty minutes before it worked. You kept saying how you had to catch it, for me. I love how disgusting we are as a couple, but I love how act like best friends as well as lovers more. You’ve made my life just now.
This is my nightmare.
Ryan - “What kind of a bird always says the name of our next band?”
Colin - “Oh, I guess a Tern… an Arctic Tern?”
Ryan - “And what sound does an Arctic Tern make?”
Colin - “Backstreet Boys!”
Thinking they have an ugly personality and a face to match.
But the best thought is when you realize you got the girl in the end.
And knowing you treat them way better than they ever did.
So… It’s obvious you’re disappointed in me. It’s obvious you think less of me. It’s obvious that you disapprove of what you assume I’ve become. But there’s the key word. Assume. Just because I’m not home doesn’t mean I’m a bad kid; it doesn’t mean I’m out clubbing, drinking, smoking, rolling, whatever. It means that I’m actually enjoying myself. You’ve always been very lax about me going out; what makes this so different? You said that you were understanding. Then why did you act so different when I told you how I am? If you’re so understanding, why can’t you understand this? I don’t know why whenever I’m happy in a relationship, you step in and put me down. Just because you don’t want me to “miss chances” and “ruin possibilities?” I’m the one who’s living my life; I know what I can handle. Stop trying to live through me, and stop trying to put me down. If this was because you’re scared of losing me, I guess the irony is on you. Because with all of this said and done, you have pushed me away. I understood why you were upset, but don’t pretend like you know my reasons. And please, take your own words of advice and stop lying to me. It’s pretty damn obvious that you’re not being completely honest with me, so I have no reason to be completely honest with you. I opened up, and you shot me down. Congratulations, your daughter will never open up to you again.
You’re fickle and confusing.
And yet, I persist.
You know.. I think because you’re only two miles away makes me miss you more. Because I know I have the means to get to you, but I don’t have the permission. Everyone wants what they can’t have.
So I haven’t really used this tumblr much before and I have no idea how the hell this works, but what the hay. Can’t hurt to swim with the current once in a while. I guess you can say I’m back, but instead I’ll just say HELLO.