I really don’t care if they hate me. I don’t care what derogatory thoughts they share with each other about me. because I know how I am and I know what the real truth is. I’d be lying to say it’s never gotten to me, but I’d also be lying if I said it hurt me. Just because people I barely know think I’m horrible, ugly, a homewrecker, whatever, doesn’t mean I’m going to hate myself and change for them to see me different. No, in fact it fuels me to stay the same. Whether or not they spread rumors, talk shit, ect., it doesn’t change anything for me. My friends won’t believe a word of it and I honestly don’t give two shits if some person I don’t know thinks I have a problem. It’s my life and this is how I chose to run it. Once you learn how to fuck what they think, you’ll realize that life just got a hell of a lot easier.
I just want one day without any laws or repercussions. I want a day where I can finally lash out both physically and verbally. I want to let out everything I’ve been holding in, every negative thought I’ve pent up. I want to confess everything. I want this weight to be lifted; I want to let people know how I really feel about them.
But most of all I want to deck you in the face. Hard.